I just have to get this out and deal with it. I didn’t realize how hard letting go would be. Some moms make it look so easy. Some daughters pull away or run from the home. They are eager for adventure and wish to find it on their own. Sometimes they break their parent’s heart in the process.
Not my daughter. This child of mine would cry if her shoelace got dirty and has barely left my side from the time she was born. Now she's getting married and I don’t know what I will do without her. I don’t want to let her go, for I can’t imagine our home without her sweet spirit in it.
There I said it!
She doesn’t know it, but I've cried almost every morning when she leaves for work for about a month now. She always looks back and waves good bye. I know the day is soon coming when she will wave good bye and drive away for the final time, with her new husband. They will make a new home … together.
I feel silly, emotional, sad and happy, all at the time. In other words, I'm feeling a bit crazy. I hate it that time has gone by so quickly. How did we get here so fast? I'm sure these feelings will pass. Hopefully soon! We prayed a long time for her and her soon to be husband. For her, this is all dreamy and wonderful for the most part. For me, I feel a lot like I did when I held her in my arms for the very first time.
What a fragile and precious gift God has given me. My responsibility is huge and I don't want to
mess it up. I must press on. There are new adventures ahead. I think God understands if I stop and cry now and then. After all….He gave me tear ducts and a mother’s heart.
God has been so good to me.
3 comments:
Aww....so sweet. I can't believe Kristin is all grown up and getting married!!!! Time sure does fly by! Will be praying for her and your family during this next adventure in your lives.
Thanks for being so honest with your thoughts. I know how you are feeling. I sure do love you a lot Di.
I love how transparent you are Dianne. You are a real blessing to me and to my fmaily.
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