Today has been an emotional kind of day for me. You know… the kind of day when you walk past your grown children's baby pictures on the wall (that you walk past every day) and for some reason they make you cry. Honestly... it's most likely hormones. I told my husband recently that I think if I can just make it through menopause there may be better days ahead for me. I don't know if that's true or just a desire in my heart, but for some reason it makes me feel hopeful.
Other women older than me seem to be ok…. for the most part. I really, really hope they are not pretending. My 40’s have not been my best years. In fact I wonder at times if I'm going to make it to my 50s. Maybe I need a hug. Not just any hug mind you. The kind of hug my husband gives me when he wraps his arms all the way around me and holds me tight. Or... the kind my Heavenly Father gives to my heart when I'm at the end of what I can handle and He simply lets me know He is there and that everything is going to be ok. Or the kind my sweet friend and pastor’s wife gives me when she doesn't say a word, but she just hugs me. Those hugs always make me cry because it's a heart thing. I don't have to say anything either because... she just knows. I love it!
I know these feelings will pass. Tomorrow will be a little like today, yet a little different all at the same time. The sun will still rise in the east... set in the west and I will still have to do the dishes. I don't know about all the other in between moments, but in all the unknowns of every new day there are things I can count on for sure that will be exactly the same tomorrow as they were today. (Unlike my hormones!)
1. God and His presence in my life.
2. God’s Word
This kind of simplifies everything and gives peace to my emotional/hormonal heart. Oh, if we could only remember this everyday of our lives! I'm thankful for the days when my girl’s baby pictures make me cry, and I long for a hug from my husband that I love, and I have uncertainties in my heart that keep me clinging to my Heavenly Father.
I'm alive! I get to think and feel. I get to have memories of my babies and share moments with my sweet friends. I get to have a relationship with the Creator of everything. I get to love others.....Yes...this is life. I am thankful for every moment of it.
Psalm 57:7 “My heart is fixed, O God, my heart is fixed: I will sing and give praise.”
A note from The Beautiful For Thee Editor:
The thoughts presented from Dianne on Choice Silver, come from her personal experience from her bed of affliction. She lives with physical debilitation, every day. Pain and weakness are her constant companions. Her words of wisdom are not the empty babblings of pious Christianity, but truth learned first hand. Her faith is real. Most days, that is all she has to lean on. Because of adversity…she is growing strong in the Lord and she inspires me.
May all who read her thoughts, be blessed and challenged.
The Blessings of One More Day of Life!
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2 comments:
Thank you for helping me to appreciate one more day of life. I love you Dianne.
Thank you for sharing your heart, Dianne. Love you! Laurie
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